Ink
February 27, 2015 § Leave a comment
most tattoos
Bewildehof 28
February 26, 2015 § Leave a comment
Bewildehof woke up on his pallet by the stove, the small pile of stones he was counting that morning beside him, a few more lay on his chest, one still in his hand
Bewilderhof – 27
February 21, 2015 § 1 Comment
Bewilderhof – 27
Chapter 27
– you call that an answer?
on
patch of grass
warm
Bewildehof on his back watching the swarm
as it swirled above
the forever question
(kept
on a card in
a pocket in
crayon in
a child’s hand)
was pulled out and held
to the sky
to be answered
“to you I am one stolen
an abandoner a taproot of
unexplained phenomena
a continuing sprout of conundrum to you I am an untouchable apparition a ghost child a flock of embers an old lady persistent in her nonsense I disrupter of sleep mesmerizer of the wakened that thing that floats across your eye the found verses in your thoughts the voice that falls off your tongue at the end of sentences I am stealer of sounds I am static sparks ball lightening rolling through the wheat I am the chaff of stars orphan of the sun a burr a companion a confidant a constant a riddle”
he sighed yes her voice
“all of that
& I tell you now
I was tapped to release
trapped waters
assigned to help them find a way into fissures in agency
this is expending of purpose
this is expansion & erosion
it is easy defining
boundaries from dirigibles
harder from where
they are drawn
I
discovered
when
chosen
for this
that
I had peeled an orange
& found a mushroom
now the task is
the herding of spores
disrupt disruption
reestablish core”
Bewildehof lay on his back
patch of grass
warm
card repocketed
listened as the lights finished
a name
unconfirmed
playing like
a mantra
in his head
(c) 2015 Fred Whitehead
Bewilderhof – 26
February 18, 2015 § Leave a comment
Bewilderhof – 26
Chapter 26
– judging tides
the fact of it,
quod illusio,
is that there is not a one
first to evoke a
hefty ridding of speculation
about intention
– his particularly
secondly, to consciously form alliance with him
though in his mind
there was
no solitude
he applied himself to hours
in transitory calm
fielding questions
from within
on sidewalks in thick evenings
on benches by the waterfront
at his desk
his window
times spent
earning ounces of defiance
times of learning
from unwarranted proclamations against birthright
he perceives
he is
forefront of legion, and
when pressed, he claims to have proven provenance of
his credentials at every
inquiry
reality wears
many a mask
as it watches
from shore
every ship
he has captained lost
every crew mutinied
from the sea he flounders in
he knows he will raise
flag atop another
continuing
to swim
clockwise in a counter clockwise whirlpool
using the only two
things left to his advantage:
patience and narcissism
he lifts the financial pages
from a newsstand as he makes his way to an upscale joint in the
center of his metropolis
sits alone as he does often
opens a menu
and ponders a
plot line of a maelstrom
(c) 2015 Fred Whitehead
Bewilderhof – 25
February 15, 2015 § 2 Comments
Bewilderhof – 25
Chapter 25
– dust redux
transformation
began with a note
one
shooting off the
edge
of creations blossom
never looking
back
to see how far
the petals would reach
before dimensions
formed in the womb
of the cosmos
it went ahead
ahead of solar winds
ahead of
light sped particles
a melodic probe
in the musicless dark
behind it
every color
every sound,
fused as they were
born to be fused,
spread out
to claim
space
all this is still all this
even
on a temperate blue rock
clinging to
the edge of a spiral
all of this is still all of this
even
in the subconscious
of an aging
Bewilderhof
whistling
while weeding
around cabbage
a tune when whistled
would cause the house
to quake
tremors only detectable
if you dared lean on the clapboards
of this phantom matriarch
– a sign maybe
within
a workup of the
wind
a wind that
doused the farm
with dust dust
as was there
a generation
past when,
even at its busiest,
the predilection for a pace glacial prevailed among his father and the hands
bib overalls serving as vaults for flasks and tobacco leaf
bandannas to brow
when the sun grew large
newspaper in boots
when winter surged
now, he too moved slow
dust around his boots
dust on his brow
a dry whistle
a rusty hoe
(c) 2015 Fred Whitehead
Bewilderhof – 24
February 14, 2015 § 1 Comment
Bewilderhof – 24
Chapter 24
– “…silver beams can
lead the way”
May 1965
every morning
the gardens
seemed to change
spring and summer
in their
embrace
one last time
before pulling away
from each other
with bow and curtsy
a boy watched
through porch railings
a mother watched
over rims of
wire spectacles
they both
watched the
girl
(daughter
sister
moon & star & sun
of their small
upstate universe)
watched
as she ran past
poppy and myrtle
– off to gather eggs
on that morning
when mother and son
were being serenaded from
kitchen door
radio low with
Patti Page
Allegheny Moon
a strange melody
weaved its way into
the song
replacing its sonic DNA with
one of its own
mother turned toward
unfamiliar sound
catching sight of her girl
from a corner of an eye
gingham starchild
coming toward the house
basket in hand
she was almost to the door when she heard her boy scream an incomplete
scream
a scream
that seemed
to have been
sucked out of the air
into a vacuum
along with the weirdly hypnotic song
that hijacked the radio
and every birdsong
every cowbell
every wind chime
stunned
a mother whirled
where her girl had been
there was now only a cloud of fire flies spinning into the air
a basket of eggs
spilled on the ground
the boy pointed at the sky
silently mouthing
a sisters name
(c) 2015 Fred Whitehead
Bewilderhof – 23
February 9, 2015 § 1 Comment
Bewilderhof – 23
Chapter 23
– a tune introduced
los desaparecidos
in Jupiters jitney
long ago June on a
morning came
to lend her light to
opiate phalanx
poppies spread out
before the porch, a day
when a boy,
enveloped in visions
escaped twisted tirade
leaned into vapor
like a maestro in rapture
as an opus played
he on the step rocking
she a ray shining and
as pollen she dusted
his shoulders
as pollen
she dusted his hair
lifting the weight
with a thousand voices
and upon leaving, to the boy
a promise whispered
a melody not heard
before that day
(c) 2015 Fred Whitehead
Bewilderhof -22
February 5, 2015 § Leave a comment
Bewilderhof – 22
Chapter 22
– fugitive, to sloth,
about kitchen and
connection
she had 12 yrs. here
he was nearing his 3rd.
and hearing what he heard
when she was drawn away
the awful endless wailing, assailing him ever since
– a grievous beast
caring nothing for the scarring
or the cinching of the binds
or the blinding of their
mother, to any good
the boy could have offered,
never would she allow her heart to be hitched to that
star of a boy whose only
wish was to shine in her opaque sky
when her mind went dark and
she sided with that darkness
patrolling the ramparts
of anguish
absorbed into a vow made
when she was at her
most broken
he took it upon himself,
as he grew older, to keep
the homestead running
it was then he came to sleep
here, forbidding himself
to go into other rooms
and for all the gloom
it was and is the heartbeat
it is where he stays, on a
a pallet by the stove
a stool by the window
a chair just outside the door
he can feel the rage in the walls as he makes tea or fills his pockets from the larder
he feels the rage trying to break
through the barrier built
by the lights
of his sister
feels the rage nurtured and
distilled by his
mother he
hears the rage
its voice
rumbling in frustration
trying to find a
language lost
to a
mothers madness
the crux being
the leaving of
a girl at the cusp of
adulthood
(c) 2015 Fred Whitehead
Bewilderhof – 21
February 3, 2015 § Leave a comment
Bewilderhof – 21
Chapter 21
– of nests and everything after
the magistrate watched the reflection of lights flitting around the rim of his wineglass and said,
as they
convened
in the middle
of his office –
“I recall,
you were a certain
child once, the remembered mother gathered together
hair of your head
banded in ribbon
blue,
when you were
this child
the mother,
cut your tail
on your insistence why
you didn’t stay alongside
her very long, well, sometimes a tangle stays
a tangle – though
you did
leave her a relic –
one, however, of sorrow
secured with
ribbon
scented with
essence of an incomplete
tomorrow
you became for her a breath
from the other side
– frosting the windows
of her frigid rooms”
“take caution,” the ruby replied
“if you
allow me to
fill in your pauses,
the flavor of your
pontification may not pair
so nicely with that vintage”
“I would gather those pauses up then, to see what universes your disjointed narrative
open for exploration” he turned to face her
“you see, you may
have lit a fuse
when you stepped off the
edge of her nest,
it is long, yes
and it is slow,
but it continues to burn
along its course
unbridled”
he sniffed at the glass
“it is specific science –
intelligent integration of thought and nonthought that feeds the fuse and keeps it on target”
the Dutchess walked over to his desk, took the box from her handbag and set it in front of the magistrate
“while we are on the subject of thoughts, would you care to invest one on this?”
she opened the box
the magistrate
grinned
to mask disdain
for the situation
as the bird inside
stirred and flew to
the outstretched finger
of the ruby
the magistrate raised his glass
“such is
the impermanence
of nests”
(c) 2015 Fred Whitehead